Cant Stop Feeling This Way

i cant help but hate myself.  its just a feeling that wont go away, no matter what i do.  i pray all the time.  i make a mental note of all the things i have going for myself.  but i just feel inadequate all the time.  i get caught  up in things that happened in the past.  i stress over every detail of my day.  i cant help but think others hate me as much as i hate me.  i have no friends. my family is very distant. and my husband just doesnt understand or even want to listen.   im so sick of feeling this way.  i dont know what to do.
blknurse blknurse 26-30 5 Responses Dec 3, 2010

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i used the smoke every once and a while, but quit cuz i have kids. dont want them to grow up thinking its cool. anyway, it didnt really help. just forgot my feelings for a few then everything came right back.

lately i've just been tryn to keep my head up. tryn trick myself into thinking every thing is ok. maybe i'll wake up one day and everything will be ok.

I know just how you feel i try to talk to my husband about it but he tells me to stop being stupid.I sometimes get so bad that i cover my mirrors so that i can't see myself.I don't have any friends at least none that will talk to me and i am far from my family.I even found out that i can't have children a month or so ago and that made me hate myself even more.I know it can be hard i really do but some days are better then others.Keep hanging in there.

I feel the same as you and I smoke weed, it works for the whole couple of hours you are stoned but a couple days later when you dont smoke reality hits again and you want to smoke, viscious cycle. Drugs help expand and escape life. Write a diary, if you've only got yourself, then only rely on yourself to feel better.

So why do you hate yourself?

I know what you should do...try smokin a fat one and sayin **** it! works.