I really don't even know where to begin. First of all I hate myself and I have no idea why I feel this way. I can't stand the sight of myself, I feel like I'm morbidly obese when actually I am of normal weight. I can't stand my body but instead of doing something about it all I do is complain about it and focus on unhealthy ways of losing weight (fasting and laxative abuse). I am in a relationship with an amazing guy and I am scared I am going to lose him because of my low self esteem. I don't think I am good enough for him. I feel my looks are way less than average even though I have been told I am attractive. I am always comparing myself to other girls adnd I am extremeley jealous. My boyfriend is just becoming aware of how severe my insecurities are. It is like I want people to know I am insecure because I wouldn't want people to think someone as hideous as me would have any self confidence, I don't feel I deserve to feel confident, if that makes any sense. I wish I had the guts to end my life because I hate it so much. I am a wortless piece of **** and I deserve to die. Am I crazy? I want to be happy with myself, what should I do?