I Hate Myself

i'v turned into a lazy, peice of ****!!
not that i already think of myself as that but everyone seems to think tht about me too ...
like the lazy part isnt true, but just a piece of **** that no one give a **** about if i just disapered, blush,
im fat, ugly , and no matter wat people say or c me and wat they say on the spot,
my mind takes every complement as a lie,
cuz thats all iv ever been told, is lies after lies.
so y believe anyone on anything..
i trust them on wat they tell me,
but if its somthin towards me thts a BS 'compliment'
is just a lie to me..
soo kinda dont bother...
ill giggle, blush, smile, say thanks.
but doesnt mean ill believe u ..
u think its for attention, to get u to feel bad for me.
i hate knowing that ppl feel "sorry" for me, cuz they dont !
they just say tht **** to get on ur goodside so u just shut the *** up !
im not dumb..
i just hate myself.
k8ewazhere k8ewazhere
18-21, F
2 Responses Oct 9, 2011

I totally and completely know what you're saying!!

I don't know you, so I have no reason to lie. I'm sorry you feel so low. I hope you get better. I don't think you're a waste of space.