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I Cant Do This Anymore....

I realy havnt gotten any better, i came to this site searching for proof that love, selflessness exsits, and in my life it dosnt. i came to see if not everyone is dominated by superficalality. but it looks like they are. maybe my step dad was right, there is no place for a boy like me in the real world. there is nothing, i dont belong in a mans world, because nobody wants a boy like me....

im thinking about quiting in general, i ment 2 people on this site who i thought were gona change my life, but they gotten bored of me it seems... i think im going to give up on the site, and life and the future... i dont know what to do now, maybe just play it by ear and drift like a scrap of paper, working with out social contact, jst being lonly all over again... or go into a bad depression later and not do anything with my life at all... i just dont know anymore...
RAWRimakitty RAWRimakitty 18-21, M 14 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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Well, I am sorry for your step dad, if that is really what he thinks. Love and selflessness do exist, often in the strangest places, but more often not totally pure. I just get the feeling from reading this (the only thing of yours I read as I drift past on ep), that there is a place for you, that the real worlds needs more people with feelings like yours to make it a better place.

yea i know what you mean. I decided just to drift through life, i'm at school and i am doing the work not really learning it and i just don't care anymore. Hanging around at home like a ghost i go straight to my room so no one will bother me, just let me rot in peace.

I lived that way threw high school it's doable and I enjoyed it and I'm still learning to trust even the people closest to me, I find it very hard to trust people and let them know who I really am because they will do what they can to hurt you but you do need people around you just watch how far your willing to let people in

Oh baby your to young to give up now, I tried when I was your age and what I learned is that what dosent kill you only makes you bitchier and sometimes you just gotta give em the finger and go about your business making sure that your takin care of, and a boy like you can rule a world like this if you just stand up and don't back down for whatever you put your mind to. If you stay in the negativity that is around you whether it be your mom, step dad, or just friends you will never see that your better then you think and become what's meant to be. You won't get any of the pleasures of life if you give up now and despite the ocean of bad crap it's worth the swim for that one moment and to keep swimming looking for more

how long have you been searching for hope? i'm searching too. but.......ahhh. nevermind. <br />
I know you can find the place you are looking for someday. I don't have faith for or in myself. but personally, i prefer rooting for others on the sideline (spotlight? NO) Truly i want these words to reach you. but i can only hope and say so much before i flub up. please don't give up. cuz if you can't, I feel like i can't. let's just depend on eachother for a bit?<br />
somehow i really feel like i'm flubbing..<br />
I'm sorry!<br />
TT.TT

its ok... its been like this since i can remember

If your mom is part of the problem you need to <br />
not have any contact with her for at least a year.<br />
<br />
Explain to her the hiatus is for the best, and you <br />
need your space, big time. <br />
<br />
Tell her you'll send emails, letting her know you're okay,<br />
but she must let you go if she loves you.<br />
<br />
That's the big difference between parenting and being a mom,<br />
knowing what is best for your child, even if it means less <br />
contact with them . <br />
<br />
You're still young, so this should work well for you.<br />
<br />
Trust me on this one. My mom thinks it's normal to be over bearing,<br />
she's a perfectionist, and brainwashed by the system. <br />
<br />
What I needed to do for myself as a person was nothing she could help me with. That's<br />
just her, don't know if your situation is the same. <br />
<br />
It's really hard now too, because the economy is so dysfunctional and makes it that much harder for a young person to break away from detracting parental units..<br />
<br />
If you can get one, a job would help. You'll end up doing stuff with your coworkers,<br />
but you gotta be careful with them, being coworkers and what not.<br />
<br />
Check out my other comments if it helps.

If your mom is part of the problem you need to <br />
not have any contact with her for at least a year.<br />
<br />
Explain to her the hiatus is for the best, and you <br />
need your space, big time. <br />
<br />
Tell her you'll send emails, letting her know you're okay,<br />
but she must let you go if she loves you.<br />
<br />
That's the big difference between parenting and being a mom,<br />
knowing what is best for your child, even if it means less <br />
contact with them . <br />
<br />
You're still young, so this should work well for you.<br />
<br />
Trust me on this one. My mom thinks it's normal to be over bearing,<br />
she's a perfectionist, and brainwashed by the system. <br />
<br />
What I needed to do for myself as a person was nothing she could help me with. That's<br />
just her, don't know if your situation is the same. <br />
<br />
It's really hard now too, because the economy is so dysfunctional and makes it that much harder for a young person to break away from detracting parental units..<br />
<br />
If you can get one, a job would help. You'll end up doing stuff with your coworkers,<br />
but you gotta be careful with them, being coworkers and what not.<br />
<br />
Check out my other comments if it helps.

If your mom is part of the problem you need to <br />
not have any contact with her for at least a year.<br />
<br />
Explain to her the hiatus is for the best, and you <br />
need your space, big time. <br />
<br />
Tell her you'll send emails, letting her know you're okay,<br />
but she must let you go if she loves you.<br />
<br />
That's the big difference between parenting and being a mom,<br />
knowing what is best for your child, even if it means less <br />
contact with them . <br />
<br />
You're still young, so this should work well for you.<br />
<br />
Trust me on this one. My mom thinks it's normal to be over bearing,<br />
she's a perfectionist, and brainwashed by the system. <br />
<br />
What I needed to do for myself as a person was nothing she could help me with. That's<br />
just her, don't know if your situation is the same. <br />
<br />
It's really hard now too, because the economy is so dysfunctional and makes it that much harder for a young person to break away from detracting parental units..<br />
<br />
If you can get one, a job would help. You'll end up doing stuff with your coworkers,<br />
but you gotta be careful with them, being coworkers and what not.<br />
<br />
Check out my other comments if it helps.

haha.. i blame her for alt of other things to..

....how though...

what do you think about me though...

I've had that feeling of people getting bored of me a number of times in my life. I feel so terrible and abandoned afterwards and direct all my energy to trying to fix myself so that people will find me more interesting and never abandon me again but it never works. Anyways, I guess I've just realized that sometimes people just need someone new for a while, and then they'll come back to you. Also, there are really their are a plethora of people out there, so if someone gets sick of you you can move on too. I used to try to have one best friend or a group of best friends where we would never ever leave each other but i guess most people don't think like that.

There's still a lot of love in the world. Maybe you're not receiving any of it now, but you can add to the total by giving it out. If you don't get it back, who cares. I promise you, if it's genuine, you'll feel happier.

if the world seems cold, kindle a fire to warm it.