Christmas Is Here Again, UnfortunatelyMore than usual, I`m having difficulty working up any enthusiasm for Christmas. I usually host a big open house a few days before, but last year I didn`t do it because I`d had a relationship break up and couldn`t muster the enthusiasm necessary to clean house, decorate and cook for 40 people. This year, I`ve started to do some of the tidying up and house cleaning necessary, but the thought of hauling out the tree and the decorations makes me want to lie down on the sofa and sleep until January. I have a storage locker in the ba
So it doesn`t make Christmas any more appealing. The card from my boss wishing "me and my family" a Merry Christmas, when he bloody well knows that I have almost no family. The family I do have think that if I have two glasses of wine at family gatherings that I have a hidden drinking problem. How to get through these family gatherings where my cousin`s 30 year-old son (who behaves like a sulky 15 year-old) sits at the end of the sofa and texts all day, his sister does nothing but rock on about how much work her baby is (how have women from countless generations before her managed?), and my cousin and her husband have. in their mid-fifties, been made redundant from low-paying jobs? I sit there silently because I still have a well paid job with benefits and feel as though I should apologize for having gotten an education beyond high school and am interested in something other than "reality" television. I have nothing to contribute to their conversations and when I do speak it's usually met with stares of incomprehension.
I've been travelling over the holidays when my schedule permits it, and this year is no exception. I'm leaving for Scotland on boxing day and stopping in Paris on the way back to see friends. Next year, rather than wait until Boxing Day, I shall probably leave on Xmas Day so that I can avoid the whole damn festival of forced jollity and confinement with people you wouldn't willingly hang out with at any other time of year, outrageous consumer spending on tat that's usually forgotten about three weeks later and spend time in a place that nourishes me in a way that a new iPhone, some Cabernet Sauvignon or my family never will.
I just wish that this whole season would go away.