The Reason Why I Hate Myself

I used to be really good at a lot of things. I used to be ambitious. but then the only girl I have ever loved broke my heart. and now I can't seem to care about anything. work school or personal life I just don't care any more. I hate myself for that fact when I was in high school I graduated a year early what I was doing well in college I held a 4.0 twice. I hate feeling like this and I hate myself for not being able to move on.
TheRascallyOne TheRascallyOne
22-25, M
7 Responses Feb 8, 2012

When I read this what comes to mind is that you relationship was destined to fail because you were not strong enough to handle it. Its paradox, but life is like that. You need it and can survive without that person then it will, fail. If you were strong enough and had enough strength of self to be alone then your relationship would likely have lasted. Take this event as a lesson to you, stop feeling sorry for yourself and figure out what you can learn from this to be better next time around in a new relationship. You are so young and despite what you think you have so much learning ahead of you.

i hate to be the kick of reality here without being the lighthearted lovey type all the time i fail at the advice thing but here goes *sighs*! <br />
The only thing that can hold YOU back and You're full potential is *bing bing* is worth the heartbreak even if it breaks 100 times before 101 is right for you....know that age old saying "no pain, no gain"...or how about "No risk, no reward." advice for you would be daily self help and motivation from within....<br />
"Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly. – Robert F. Kennedy"<br />
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"The way to develop self-confidence is to do the thing you fear and get a record of successful experiences behind you. Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved. – William Jennings Bryan"<br />
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Remember you're own confidence comes from within...i am hoping we can be friends i have been where you are right now and it seems like a black hole but trust me there is a light if you choose to see it...<br />
I will leave you with one more quote i ask you to think hard about...<br />
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"The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing, and becomes nothing. He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn and feel and change and grow and love and live. – Leo F. Buscaglia"

Be you're own motivation :) trust me &lt;3 hit me up to chat sometime and i will be happy to try to help anyway i can if even to make you smile on a dang rough day :P

Thank you so much :)

It hurts, I know, but in time it will get better. Time is all you need but it does seem to move slower when your hurting. Just try your hardest to keep everything up as best you can and before you know it, you'll realize that your just fine. :)

thats some girl, find another one and move on, don't ****** complain, u made it through high school and have enough money for college, i never had that chance my dad kicked me out at 17 and did it the hard way, u got a free pass over the hard stuff and ur gonna **** that up for a girl get a grip man. whenever u think its hard u always gotta remember somebody's got it even harder, but it sounds to me like ur unstable thats probably y she left u, talk to her

You need time, i know it sounds cliche, bu you really do! You need to stay away from her and away from her memory. Force yourself to not think about her! Change your stream of thought whenever thoughts of her come into your head! It takes time and a constant guard of your thoughts. But once you get the hang of it, your on your way to a successful 'getting over' that person! Hope my advice helps!

Thanks man ill try.

Hey, man. I feel the same way about something that I regret screwing up. I used to hold a 4.0 for the first 2 yrs of college and was involved in so much, but now I can't even function like a normal human. I think you should seek counseling w/ a professional. I did this a few weeks ago, but it didn't work out. Now I'm building up the courage to seek another professional. I think if you can find the right person to talk to, it could help. Sometimes it can take a few tries to find the right person, however. You're probably a great person with a lot of potential. Right now you're going through a tough time, but you can make it out a stronger person.