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I Hate Myself

Hate That I Was Born

By: fuglygirlonthebench
Written on April 6th, 2012
One thing I am really good at is pretending I am fine, pretending I am happy when I am not. I don't know why I am born. I love it when I am asleep.I can leave this stupid life temporarily, escape this hell of a world. I don't want to be here yet I don't want to kill myself. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so trapped. I hate my body, my face, my looks, my everything. I always make mistakes, over and over again, keep doing the wrong things, can never do something right. I feel so ashamed by myself. I just feel I should die off. It's better for me and everyone else. I have nothing to strive for, nothing to look forward to, it's like there's nothing left for me anymore....
By: fuglygirlonthebench
Age: 18-21 , Female
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4 responses
  • Fran54
    Fran54

    I feel the same way as you do most of the time, hating everything about myself and wishing I could die and be out of this world. Do you ever feel that you are the only one in the world who isn't worhty of love and care, because this is how I feel about myself.

    Apr 9, 2012
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  • Abbyjo
    Abbyjo

    I feel exactly the same way you described. It's nice to know I'm not alone in this world. Self-hatred is really terrible, because when the person that is absolutely closest to you (yourself) is telling you your worthless your more likely to believe it. I'm sure if I talked to you I would find out that you are really a great person, message me sometime:)

    Apr 7, 2012
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    • fuglygirlonthebench
      fuglygirlonthebench

      Ok, will do! I am in a state where I am just living for the sake of living, like a zombie, ya know?

      Apr 8, 2012
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