I Hate Myself!!

i hate myself for being ugly and untalented and unatrractive...all my friends get good grades in school and have luck in love and i just find myself as a freak. an oveerweight stupid ugly freak. even in piano, i find failure. ive been thinking about suicide and thought who would miss me if i did die other than my family members...becaude nowadzys my friends dont seem to care abput me. two of them fight consistently one them is quite selfcentered one of them is in a relationship and three others are having theor own tjing.