I hate myself. I really hate myself. i used to think I was smart but then I went to freaking nerd school and I have C's in all my classes and I'm scared I'm going to be kicked out and I signed up for APs I wasn't ready for so I'm going to fail those too and I don't want to tell my parents and I've been lying to them because they've invested so much time and energy in me and have been building me up ever since I was little--always telling me I have potential and if I work hard I'll be successful and I can do even better than my sister did and that I need to achieve high.

I know now that I can't do that.

I'm going to fail because I aimed too high.

and I can't hide it much longer. It's all going to come out soon.
bitc bitc
May 13, 2012