I'm An Introvert.

I'm 17, and a junior in high school. Ever since I can remember, I have always been comfortable with being alone. Both of my parents, and my 14 year old sister, and extroverts; they are always around people. My mom doesn't stop asking me why I don't have any friends, and why I never have a boyfriend. In school I talk to people, but I'm still known as "the quiet one." because of the pressure from my parents, I have turned to alcohol. I still don't hang out with people, but now I can't stand being alone either. I'm at the point when I cry every day for no reason. For no reason, I now hate myself. I want to run away somewhere and get a fresh start.
iWishToBeStrong iWishToBeStrong
18-21, F
2 Responses May 19, 2012

See, whats crazy is you already know that you are an introvert at your age. I never really had any real friends in high school. The friends I did have were just smoking buddies. I got into things like that I guess just to feel good and get away from everything. (Bad idea looking back). Only until just recently (Im 23 now) did I realize that I am an introvert. I always thought I was weird and different. I always thought whats wrong with me, and I would also randomly just cry in my thoughts. I still feel the pain at times really wanting to be with someone who will get me or just take me for who I am. Whats sucks is that a lot of other people consider me to be really good looking but that doesn't help. Its tough to find someone who can be your counterpart and just want to hang out with that person. There is hope though. You are not alone in this struggle. Eventually you will meet a good friend or significant other. Unfortunately it might just take a little bit longer than you want. Don't give up hope. Getting a hobby really helps. Also you can meet a lot of good people by volunteering and going to other activities where there is a small group of people. Good luck I know you will find your way. Pray if you pray and know that everything is going to work out. Whether we know it or not we are all in this together.

i know how you feel i don't have many and i don't go out. alcohol can only make you feel better for a little while. its up to you who you hang out or you even hang out at all if you want a boyfriend or not. :) dont cry. x