You Bring Out My Hatred For Myself

I go to sleep cryin wakin up every day wishin I was dyin
I can't sleep. I don't eat.
You can't even see that you did this to me you have too much self glory and what I want never matters to you.
You hurt me over and over again my hearts shattered and I don't know what to do.
**** love.
It's not real. Pain is what's real and it's all I can feel. You did me no wrong mother ******? How about you get real.
My mind is stuck on replay like a broken film reel. I need you out of my head. I'm laying my thoughts of you to bed because I know I'll never have you in the end.
When I said I'd love you for forever, I meant it but I guess you didn't. I want to run back into your arms so bad, yet I know I shouldn't. But I can't give up. It's not my fault I fell in love with a chump.
You play games, you tell lies. I see no love in your eyes for me. You never stopped for a minute to think how crazy you'd be if I did to you what you did to me.
But push has always got to come shove. You showed me no love, murdering my heart sending it up above.
You ripped my heart out of my chest when I gave you nothing but my best. I hope you burn in hell for that ****, I can't believe you ran back to that *****.
You wasted so much of my time, for that I ******* wish you would drop dead and die. I want to smash your face into the ground, you better pray I never see your face around.
You made my heart heavy, its constantly on the verge of bursting through my chest. But I do my best to keep going and keep everyone else from knowing my pain.
Because without you, I have everything to gain.
ahnwon ahnwon
18-21
May 25, 2012