I'm Not Good Enough...

I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. I know my family loves me but I also know that I'm not the kind of daughter my mum wanted. I have recently lost a lot of weight but I still feel so insecure about my body. I know logically that I'm on my healthy weight but emotionally I don't feel like that. I still feel fat. I have a group of friends that I go out with but I feel like the odd one out. They always text each other but no one really cares about me. I think they just let me tag along for pity sometimes. I used to be really quiet but with a lot of effort I did come out of my shell, but now I feel like people think I'm annoying when I talk because they never listen. I think that they think that I'm boring and just don't want to talk to me. I have no idea how to take compliments. They are always so awkward for me because of that. I hate myself because I feel like no one needs me and I'm just a waste of space and good for nothing.
Gweeker Gweeker
2 Responses Jun 12, 2012

I no how u feel. Except it's becuz I'm ugly. I no how it is to talk and can see that noone cares about what you're saying. I winds if dey realize dat we can see da rolling of da eyes, da ugh I wish she shut up, or da no one cares about ur opinion look on their face wen u do try 2 speak. Or da txtn dem n dey dnt txt bak n if dey do it's 1 of dose 1 sentence txt. But dey txt n talk 2 othas. I had one girl talk 2 me everyday n class actn as my friend. She is so pretty, coke bottle shaped and dressed like a million bucks. Everyday I c her on Facebook cause we sat nxt to each otha but wen I say we can Facebook each otha at da end of da semester , she lies n tells me she dnt hav a fb page. Da only time ppl are nice to me is to cheat off my hmwk or wen dey need something and dey dnt even try to hide their intentions. I always had hopes n dreams dat web I get grown my life Wyd b different only 2 get grown n realize it sucks worse. I won't tell u things wil get beta becuz dats wat da " well wishers do" and it doesn't change nethng. Jus gives u more hopes n dreams dat turn n2 mo hurt. Wat I will say is I no how u feel n wat u goin thru n u not n it by urself. 2 bad there's not somewhere all of us cud go n liv 2 getha n liv away from da rest of society amongst our own kind ## society's reject

Hi honey, i read your story, i wish i could give you a hug and tell you how special you are, how unique and how lucky you are to be born with a different personality away from the rest of people, i wish i could make you feel better,<br />
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but you must have been out there before, on the cold loneliness of depths of the soul, i been there too, far too many time, and it sometimes feels like dying like you wish your hearth just stopped.<br />
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what you probably dont know is how cruel is the world if you let it eat you, devour you and that is why you gotta fight back, otherwise nobody will care about you, you must shout kick and scream for your place, not shy away in a corner, only when you strive with advercity the best you comes out from within and peeople start to see actually how special and nice you are, you should try it,<br />
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try to forget all the troubles and the pain from the past as heavy as they drag on you and try to start again from a new mentallity, a new inner you