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I Hate Myself

Unwanted And Depressed

By: dollie5
Written on July 6th, 2012
We were up at the cabin for 4th of July week. I went with his family. The first couple nights were fun, but one of the nights left me hurt so bad that I don't know what to do, it makes me feel depressed and I can't shake it.

y boyfriend and I were asleep and I woke up because my stomach hurt... nowi hink the walls at the cabin must have been super thin because I heard everything his two sisters were saying about me.

They said the most horrible things, they pretend to be nice to me but deep down they want me to disappear. One even said she couldn't stand being with me for longer than 45 minutes without wanting to shoot herself. They also don't want my boyfriend with me anymore, they wish he would leave me and never look back... they even think I am cheating on him... I am undeserving of him and he deserves better...

I don't know what to do anymore. He says he loves me and we have been together for almost 3 years, but I just can't live my life knowing that when we are with his family and his sisters are being nice to me, they are really strangling me till I can't breathe.

Should I leave him to make his family happy?
I love him and I feel like I would suffer from severe depression leaving him but I am depressed just knowing how hated and despised I am by his own family.

Help me...
By: dollie5
Age: 18-21 , Female
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    unQuenched
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    It occurs to me that your Bfs sisters just might be manipulative schemers, and that he resents their intrusions in his life; talk to him about this. Whatever you do in life, honey, there will be those who don't like it, and no matter how good that you are, some people just won't like you; don't worry about that stuff, and pursue your own happiness. Its quite likely that you can't make these sisters happy, and you only have the power to make yourself happy—and you might think of what makes your BF happy, too.

    Jul 7, 2012
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    hylierandom
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    Ok...Screw those b1tches

    If his family does not like you, you are under no obligation to go with them.



    Can you get Dialectical-Behavioral Therapy class somewhere? It could totally change your life for the better.



    If you are not taking meds, they might help too.



    If you ever want to talk to me, I'm here...too much! Curse you EP!



    You're a sweet, sensitive kid, and you let what other people think of you bother you too much.

    Jul 7, 2012
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    startingpointguard33
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    This is so sad. You should do what makes you happy. I have suffered with depression for a long time now and the longer you allow it to build up and take place in your head it is incredibly difficult to fight it away.

    So, if you love him and loves you talk about the situation with him. Get his insight. I hope the best for you.

    Jul 6, 2012
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