Why Can't I Do This.

i honestly don't know what's wrong with me. i have an awesome life. i have everything i could want. and yet i'm so freaking depressed. what is wrong with me? why am i not strong enough to handle normal everyday life? sometimes i wish something bad would happen in my life just so i could have a reason for being so depressed. selfish, isn't it?

i am. i'm selfish, stupid, melodramatic, weak. i screw up everything in my life. i don't know how to relate to normal people. i don't know what's wrong with me, i just know that i am so sick of being me. i am so sick of this person that i am, and i don't know how much longer i can go on. this is something of a last resort. i don't even know why i'm posting this. maybe to see what people have to say. i don't know. i guess i'm just an attention seeker. god i hate myself.
icantbreathe79 icantbreathe79
18-21, F
3 Responses Sep 5, 2012

You're observant and verbose for a 17 year old, you're also introspective to a fault, which means that you're a lot smarter than you give yourself credit for. Life goes on and people, including yourself, will change. I don't know the man I was 5 years, 3 years or 1 year ago, but I can tell you that I didn't like those men and I'm working, still working, to better myself. <br />
I can tell you that the worst mistakes in life are the ones you do not get to regret, and I hope that you know that you are not alone in this world.

Don't beat yourself up so much and try to enjoy what you have while you have it. You've got your entire life ahead of you if you are only a teen. There's plenty of time to screw up. Then the real, more meaningful fun begins.

I'm exactly the same got no real reason to be sad or to hate life I'm just an ungrateful sook loser :(