I Hate Myself. Im Very Lonely. Im Ugly. And Stupid. And Useless. I Need A Best Friend.

im 18. yes im young but ive had my more than my fair share of hurt. i used to be so happy. everything was getting along so well. i had a perfect family, we had a good fortune, i was doing well in school, i had many friends.

then high school came. i changed a lot. i learned to say bad words cuz i thought it will gain me attention. my mom was never there to guide me. i had to learn everything on my own. and not all was right. i faltered a lot of times. i started to become conscious of my appearance. i realized im ugly and fat. it all started from there. i lost my confidence but at least i had friends and i was still doing good in school.

then college. i lost grandma who was like my real mom. i started failing in school. i chose the wrong field. i wanted psychology but i took up commerce. its so frustrating. people there are brilliant and talented. i feel useless. i started drifting away from everyone and everything.

i thought i didnt need people in my life. i was wrong. now im so alone. i dont think my old friends still want me. i need a best friend please. i need someone to talk to. thank you.
MargoRothSpiegelman MargoRothSpiegelman
22-25, F
3 Responses Sep 16, 2012

HEY SOME TIME I DOO FEEL SAME CAN I HAVE U R NUMBER SHALL WE FRIENDS AM SURELY LACKING FREINDS

Hi. I can they that I've improved a bit. I'm a bit happier now as I'm starting to find good things about me. Happiness may take so long but it'll always be worth it. I'd love to be your friend. I'm from Manila though. I don't think it's practicable. But you can always message me here. :))

AWESOME waiting for u r mail at hillweahh@gmail.com more at mail

(((Hugs)))

you look good to me, and you write well. if you're not good enough at academics, you may be lacking in practice. so all that's left is loneliness - welcome to life.