Breakdown

This past Saturday I had a horrible emotional breakdown. It was related to my failures as a runner and my complete lack of positive self talk. I have been getting physically sick while emotional since that day, and I am still not completely better. I'm going to talk to my counselor from last year tomorrow. I thought I could handle the stress of my life this semester, but I need help. I need to learn how to think positively again and not compare myself to others. I constantly hate myself for being fat and slow while my teammates are all skinny and fast, of course. Part of me wants to give up, but I am going to continue no matter how hard my self hatred makes things.
Lumafei Lumafei
18-21, F
Sep 19, 2012