Everything About Me

I cannot stand myself. I'm disgusting. I hate the way I look. I hate the way I think. I'm negative, prone to panic, sensitive, stupid, ugly inside and out. There is nothing worth liking. I stare at myself in the mirror, contemplating cutting my face crazy to make it match my soul. There is not one single good thing about someone so useless and dispicable.

I don't know when it dawned on me how much I absolutely loathed myself. Even as a kid I was...contemplating. I stayed inside, thinking about ways to kill myself and rid everyone of this pathetic piece of trash. Why I'm still here I'm not sure. I want to like myself. I want to be able to honestly tell people I enjoy living.

But I don't. I'm trying, but who knows how long that will take when I hate everything about me?
TheRelapseDevil TheRelapseDevil
18-21, F
Nov 30, 2012