Pretty Much

I have some many reason to hate myself right now, and I really do. I mean look at me, I allowed my child to be taken from me and didn't even put up a fight for her. I am sure she hates me too. I married a man for all the wrong reasons and look at me now I am pregnant.

The state will probably take this baby from me too if I don't find a way to get myself out of this mess. I don't have anyone to turn to because the one person that was always there for me now hates my guts for very legit reason, so I can't say that I wouldn't do the same thing.

Sometimes I just feel as if the world would be better off without me.
hellontheheart hellontheheart
18-21, F
2 Responses Dec 5, 2012

i feel so srry for you. but to feel like the world would be better off without you isnt good. I have been doing that since i was 8 and im 16 right now. all it did was destroy my life. now i stuck trying to fix it but it doesnt work out that good. Try to feel better because you dont want to be stuck like this. Im srry for wat happen to you though.

it takes time to pick up the pieces and rebuild. it takes even longer to rebuild faith, trust or even just approval that others have in you. DSS is a *****, but they will work with you, but you're right, it'll never be easy. However, the world would not be better off without you. And whether your child is with you right now or not, she would not be better off without you, regardless of how she even feels. just keep fighting.