MessMy life is a mess. I'm an unattractive slob who's too loud and can't keep her grades up in school. Everyone thinks i'm just going through a faze, but I'm not. I'm depressed, and no one cares about me enough to see it. They think i'm fine. They don't know that I hide in my room and cry all day because my life is worthless. The only thing that's made me even slightly happy or excited in the past two years was the idea that I would be able to go see my idol in concert this February, but my mom is taking that away from me. I'll just sit in my room and cut my arm open with a knife like I do every day, and still no one sees my scars. I have nothing to live for anymore. I don't care if I live or die.
Thank you to everyone for their kind words of support!!! Since I posted this over a year ago, I have reached out to my friends for support and I am currently battling my depression and winning. My cutting is in remission for going on 6 months, and while I still struggle with feelings of worthlessness every once and a while, I am a much happier person and I am learning to accept and love myself for who I am. If anyone is feeling the way I was feeling when I posted this, I beg you to get help. Even just trusting in one close friend can make a difference that will turn your life around.
P.S. I got to go to my concert after all. It was fantastic :)