Mixed-up

Before, if someone hurt me, I would instantly despise them, but now, I instantly despise myself. Sometimes, I don't understand whether I hate the people around me or hate myself, but I cry anyway. I feel so mixed-up. I don't know how to handle this. I don't know what to do. I hurt and I hurt and I hurt and I don't know how I'm feeling and I feel lost and alone and afraid and I can't take this anymore. I just can't. I've grown afraid to look into people's eyes, and they're starting to notice. I'm afraid of everything. I can't take this anymore. I just can't.
ichoosethelabyrinth ichoosethelabyrinth
13-15, F
Jan 9, 2013