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My life isn't all that bad. I have the usual… bullies, haters, friends and family.
I hate my life. But that doesn't stop me from living.
I leave the house everyday dreading the day. I get called names like, ‘Ugly, boy, animal, it and many more.’ I get harassed by more than half of my class. I use to respond with simple ‘Leave me alone. You aren't much different.’ And stuff like that, but I stopped. I thought they would lay off if I did, but they still do. I tried self harm. And I couldn't do it. I tried suicide but I couldn't. They got worst they do it all the time in front of teachers and everyone. My ‘friends’ laugh at their painful remarks, I want to stop talking to them. But the fear of having no one at all scares me a lot. I hate my life, and more importantly myself.
Skylarrrr Skylarrrr
13-15, F
2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

u remind me of my past life....but still have scar untill now....u know what, when im was bullied by those stupid moron..i cried a lot..but not even once have thought to kill myself...
what im going to tell u a little bit nerdy...but believe me its really help me a lot...i read a lots of books about self-enhancement book, i always told myself to be tough and no one can help me except me...then end up i really being really tough.....thats y i took taekwando class...seriusly this help me a lot....and try do not whining a lot.....mybe this kind of tough to u at this moment.......

seriusly i thnk i become more success than all that bastards.......u should try it now.....
be toughhhhh....plz2........endure.....be tough....u will be success...

Funny, I also just started taekwondo last week too and I think it helps. And self improvement books are really really helpful, I agree. In fact if you check out a book called Feeling Good the New Mood Therapy by Dr. David Burns, it has literally saved my life at different times. It points out how it isn't what others do or say, or what happens to us to makes us feel certain ways, but how we interpret these things. Of course it's hard when people call you names and really I think you should take that to another teacher, school counsellor or principal.They should not be allowed to call you things. Try that and then we will then go plan b.

I feel for you...school is like hell...try to keep in mind only people in pain are cruel to others