Does It Really Get Better?
I go through my day being fake. i act like im happy but im not. im the oldest in the family so im like the second mom,i have to be there for my younger siblings. there are days when i want to lay in bed and cry but i cant. I turned to OTC sleeping pills to numb my brain throughout the day,the crazy things is no one notices. I hate myself,i hate my body,my personality. I've thought about taking my own like several times. i started cutting but i felt guilty later i didnt want my siblings to think of me as a coward. so for now im going through it alone. i feel like im living just to die