I'M So Alone I Hate Myself For It :Ci don't have any friends and all i really have is my boyfriend. but he calls me names all the time. he called me a mardy b**ch. when he tells me to do something i do. eg- change my hair colour. he even told me to go on anti depressants because i'm too depressive for him.
yet he says he loves me?
i see him once a week if i'm lucky. he tells me he's more bothered about me than his friends but he ditches me and lies to me about being busy or that he can't make it, which he's lied to me plenty of times before. then he tells me all i do is moan moan moan and that i can't take anything. i didn't see him for 3 weeks excluding last week. and he said he prefers to see me today but has gone out with all of his so called friends.
he ignores my texts for hours on end when he's with them but when he's with me he replies to them at least 40 percent of the time.
i'm always alone on the weekends and i have nobody to talk to or hang with except him if i get to see him and he makes me feel worse making other plans.
he knows that i have mental health problems and he says he understands and wants to comfort me yet he does all this? and if he understands how come when i need comforting he stops texting me and doesn't come down when he says he will?
i can't finish him. he's my first love. but i don't know what to do because he never used to be like this with me :'(