I seem to not care about myself as much as I care for others. I give them my all. I pour my hearts out to them just so they can be a better person. Way much more better than I will ever be. When I look at myself I'm never good enough. Not good enough to even make my own self happy. I over think all the bad things about me. I hate it. If I could I'd change so much about me. I'm worthless. If I jump off a bridge I'd be doing myself a favor. All I know is I'm not in control. I hate who I am. How I look.. I hate myself. But nobody knows that. Why? Because to them I'm just the happy one. The one that has nothing to worry about. Only if they knew. I could care less about myself. Why can't I just give my life to some person that needs it more than I do.
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