I Hate MyselfIt's not supposed to be like this, I was supposed to be someone, something. I am no one, I am a loser, I hate myself! I HATE myself for everything I have done and have not done. What is wrong with me what happened, I feel so worthless and helpless. I have ruined my life and the lives of the very few people I have in my life. I feel so much pain, I would do anything to take away the pain...I just cant fight and be strong anymore, I just want to be done. it would hurt a few people but it is nothing compared to the pain I would cause if I continue. I just want to be done. iF the medication helps me not hate myself, it's just making me live a lie. I cant even say I need help, because I am not sure I even want it. If I go to sleep and dont wake up who cares, it wont hurt, I am sick of hurting. How am I supposed to help my children if I can't help myself and keep my own **** together. Im 34 living in someones ******* ba
I have no passion, no goals, nothing to look forward to, I am just a shell, I am so empty what the **** is wrong with me, what happened.