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I Hate Myself

Just A Wandering Soul

By: jodell014
Written on February 8th, 2013
I'm so lost. I thought I was getting better but I'm not. I'm on depression pills and have a therapist and all that but pills are pills and I don't feel comfortable talking to my therapist. I have no friends to talk to. I dumped my boyfriend. No one cares anymore. I keep everything bottled inside. I just hate myself I'm alone watching a movie by myself on a Friday night. I have no friends. I hate my life. I hate me. What I've done what I've become. I just don't know what to do anymore I feel so alone. I am alone.
By: jodell014
Age: 16-17 , Female
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    1000sleepessnights
    1000sleepessnights

    Don't feel alone because many times I feel the same way. I bottle things up as well and it sometimes comes out unhealthily. I feel like the friends I do have, don't actually know me. But just know that you're not alone in feeling unimportant. And you aren't worthless and do matter.

    Feb 8
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    tubeless
    tubeless

    You need to get a grip on yourself. Have you got any proper reasons to be depressed or are u just being a teenager? You say you have done something - what is it? Did u change channels when Nikki Menage was on (highly recommended)?

    Feb 8
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      jodell014
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      Excuse me? You have no right to burst in here making fun of me. I'm not just "being a teenager" I have been diagnosed with depression by a therapist AND a doctor, no I don't know why I am depressed but there are no "reasons" for being depressed. Depression is an illness believe it or not, it is not a choice. Some people have it, some people don't. You don't know me or my life so I suggest you stop judging me.

      Feb 9
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      tubeless
      tubeless

      You have some fair points there jodel. Now you just have to direct your energy in a different direction and stop being so miserable. My doctor says I'm depressed too but so what, life goes on. I suggest you go out and get a job and stop being an emo. And stop watching Niki Menage videos.

      Feb 9
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      jodell014
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      I'm 16 my parents won't let me get a job because I'm in two musicals currently and on a dance team. Clearly I keep busy enough. And I don't even like niki minaj (spell her name right) plus I'm rich af so I don't even need to get a job

      Feb 9
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      tubeless
      tubeless

      Dancing's a good thing. I still reckon u should get a job. U are 16, u r allowed to get married at your age so working as a shop assistant twice a week will do u good and it's unreadonable for upur parents to stop uou. Don't let ur parents smother u with kindness...life can be comfortable but empty for rich girls.

      Feb 10
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      What don't you understand about what I just said? I don't have time to get a job every single day of the week is full already. I'm too busy being a teenager to start being an adult why waste my youthful years? And why would I want to get married? No one gets married at my age. Boys aren't even mature enough to marry yet.

      Feb 10
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      tubeless
      tubeless

      Marriage is clearly not a prospect for you - we can definitely agree on that jodell!!! Its not too early for you to start growing up a bit though, a bit of work and less being a drama queen would work in your favour. According to you everything's out of your hands and poor little jodell's got such a hard life. I think you need to take responsibility - its your life. Probably not what you want to hear so I look forward to your next tirade ;-).

      Feb 16
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