I Hate MeI hate me. Ive been depressed since 3rd grade. Ive had a lot of problems growing up. But right now i hate me because i have been depressed non-stop for the passed 7 years. I have bad days and worse days. I am a shopaholic. I am very broke but cant stop shopping.I HATE ME. I spent over $5,000 on credit since September. Im a stay at home mom. I am trying so hard to stop. I mostly have but still stumble at times. Ive explained to my teen that i have a problem. I hate myself because of my disease. . I hate myself because of my depression. My depression dictates my life. I have gone to group a few times. I have a psychiatrist and counselor. The medication helps some. I don't want to die i have a husband and
2 girls who all depend on me. Just want to be normal.