Im a Fat Piece of ****.
being depressed early on in life made me take medication, which caused me to gain weight, which has caused me to... hate myself more.
i have people who love me, but im soo lonely. im 20 years old, i've never had a boyfriend, had my first kiss last year (with a boy i met off the internet that i was "in love" with..) i didnt tell himit was my first kiss though, so i freaked out and pushed him away. he was one of the easiest people in the world for me to talk to, but i lost him. because i suck.
i hate myself that i feel/think that no one could ever love me. i dont give most people a chance to know me, because.... theres no redeeming quality about me. im selfish, ugly, and possessive. im jealous of most girls that walk by.
im stuck at age 14 FOREVER. Jesus ******* Christ, does this **** ever ******* end?!