HATE Myself and All That My Life Has Been

I hate myself for what my father did to my sister.

I hate myself for it not being me that it happened to.

I hate myself for fearing what might happen.

I hate myself for fearing losing my biological mom and my biological grandma when it has not happened yet.

I hate myself for not speaking for myself when I should.

Everything lately has been making me think I am living a life that makes me hate myself more and more.

kthimm1 kthimm1
18-21, F
4 Responses Feb 21, 2009

Not my imagitaniation. What I was told really. <br />
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I guess I could yes. I have a hard time relaxing honestly.

you have to keep going! this is not your fault. you need to think of you my friend!

I know that really but i still feel as it is partly. He is my father too. It could have been me and I know that and wish it was sometimes.

Read my blogs. I put it in one of them maybe two. <br />
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I do blame myself as it might have been me and I wish it was me that it happened to.