There is a saying that everything in life comes as a blessing. It's part of our destiny and our path towards our life. We perceive events in our lives as good or bad, we make mistakes, but we blame others. Lies come and go traveling like the wind until one day they just come back to knock you down. As your Dreams grow and as soon as they finally come into your reach life knocks you down and as you struggle to stand up again and fight for what you want life hits you even harder and just as you don't feel like fighting any more or just want to give up life gives you a hand and helps you get back up hunt until you are sting enough too keep fighting and jut as you get to that point again life starts knocking you down again and again just for the fun of it.
If seen myself fall and get back up. I've fallen hard and kept my head high, but now I've fallen in a hole so deep I just keep falling in other holes again and again and one day I think I will call it home. My life is a mess. I have no friend my family has their own problems and I have no one to talk too. Every time I try I make a fool out of myself people look at me funny and now I even have trouble crying about it. I've cried myself to sleep so many time that when I want to cry no tears come out I sit there with a stupid face looking at myself but I look weak and each time it's worse. I've looked for ways to kill myself. End the agonizing pain I live through every day. Every time a car comes by me I think it should just run me per and leave me there to rot. I don't know what I want most to die, end the suffering there or just see who will actually miss me besides my family. Who will fake the tears, who will take it as a relief and who will actually feel bad for leaving me in the dark.
xogymfish xogymfish
18-21, F
4 Responses Aug 15, 2014

We Carry This Knowledge Every Day –
*** 2:11 For The Grace Of God That Bringeth Salvation Hath Appeared To All Men,
Jesus Is Our Sin Bearer.
1pe 3:18 For Christ Also Hath Once Suffered For Sins, The Just For The Unjust, That He Might Bring Us To God, Being Put To Death In The Flesh, But Quickened By The Spirit:
B. Jesus Is Your Sacrifice. –
Be Hold The Lamb Of God, Which Takes Away The Sins Of The World.
Eph 1:7 In Whom We Have Redemption Through His Blood, The Forgiveness Of Sins, According To The Riches Of His Grace;
Jesus Is Your Forgiver – Father Forgive Them Col 2:13 And You, Being Dead In Your Sins And The Uncircumcision Of Your Flesh, Hath He Quickened Together With Him, Having Forgiven You All Trespasses
• Needs Food It Gets Strong By The Promises Of God
• Needs Hearing Environment Ish 11;12
• Or It Will Chew On The Negative- Invest In The Mind
• Need Pictures Turning Goals Into Picture- Self talk Conversation- God’s World Contains Faith Needs Protect The Mind -Its Fragile -Have trouble With Mind,
• Mind Keeps Track -No Body Sees What You Experience
• Feed On psalms 119, 91 37 Wash The Mind, Absorb We Succeed With The Mind, A Focus An Instruction, Judas And John Has The Same Mentor
• We Can Have A Relationship With God But Not Through The Law.
• Talk Your Way Out, Sow Your Way Out A Walking Ware House Of Seed- by the words bought to us from heaven. Jesus bought it to us. it Leaves The mouth And Goes Into The Future.

Im looking forward to the end.

Sorry for the crappy writing my cellphone has autocorrect and since I tend to type really fast... Well yeah **** happens hahaha

im here if you need someone to vent to.

Thanks 💕

no problem ☺️