Where's My Will Power?

Sometimes I feel like I just fail at living my life. I'm fortunate to live the life I live, and to have all the opportunities offered to me and yet I find that I waste a lot of my life just feeling self pity. I find it pretty disgusting, really, that while I know exactly what I need to do to live the life I want to live, I can never bring myself to take the steps to get there. I know, that must mean I don't really want that life enough and yet I do. I'm just too lazy, and too soft willed to get there. How can I even have the right to complain about my life when I have the power to change it? That's what I hate most about myself.

olay olay
13-15, F
Mar 2, 2009