I hate myself the pain and humiliation I caused my parents by marrying outside my religion.

I hate myself for for forcing my husband to convert to my religion albeit for show and for having to keep up the pretence in front of my parents.

I hate myself for lying to everyone to keep up this charade even to my cousin who would have been completely fine with my interfaith marriage- just in case my mum found out the truth.

I hate myself for avoiding people of my religion in case they have a go at me.

I hate myself for thinking about this all the time because it's affecting my relationship with my husband.

I hate myself for being so stupid as to not think through the decisions I made and the consequences.

I wish I could disown my mum so I could stop having to lie to everyone.

I hate myself because sometimes I wish I had split up with my husband before having children.
Hbee1980 Hbee1980
36-40, F
2 Responses Aug 23, 2014

THE MIND
• Needs Food It Gets Strong By The Promises Of God
• Needs Hearing Environment Ish 11;12
• Or It Will Chew On The Negative- Invest In The Mind
• Need Pictures Turning Goals Into Picture- Self talk Conversation- God’s World Contains Faith Needs Protect The Mind -Its Fragile -Have trouble With Mind,
• Mind Keeps Track -No Body Sees What You Experience
• Feed On psalms 119, 91 37 Wash The Mind, Absorb We Succeed With The Mind, A Focus An Instruction, Judas And John Has The Same Mentor
• We Can Have A Relationship With God But Not Through The Law.
• Talk Your Way Out, Sow Your Way Out A Walking Ware House Of Seed- by the words bought to us from heaven. Jesus bought it to us. it We Carry This Knowledge Every Day –
*** 2:11 For The Grace Of God That Bringeth Salvation Hath Appeared To All Men,
Jesus Is Our Sin Bearer.
1pe 3:18 For Christ Also Hath Once Suffered For Sins, The Just For The Unjust, That He Might Bring Us To God, Being Put To Death In The Flesh, But Quickened By The Spirit:
B. Jesus Is Your Sacrifice. –
Be Hold The Lamb Of God, Which Takes Away The Sins Of The World.
Eph 1:7 In Whom We Have Redemption Through His Blood, The Forgiveness Of Sins, According To The Riches Of His Grace;
Jesus Is Your Forgiver – Father Forgive Them Col 2:13 And You, Being Dead In Your Sins And The Uncircumcision Of Your Flesh, Hath He Quickened Together With Him, Having Forgiven You All Trespasses
Leaves The mouth And Goes Into The Future.

Religion is just a thing and your husband converted because he loves and respects you and your parents.

Thanks for reading and replying. He doesn't really dwell on this, his family don't know nor do any of friends.