How to Live When You Don't Have Love In Life?

Its getting terrible day after day, night after night. I am 24 year old Shrek and some of my old schoolmates are married and will become dad very soon. I am still a boring bachelor. I always was happy till  reached my 12th class in school when I felt for a girl. Never had any courage to say her. Felt for another girl 2 years back who was also my old classmate. When I was just planning to propose her i came to know that She is already committed with a guy whom she has met on the internet and have never met in person. And the more funny thing was that she started treating that internet prince charming as her husband. And frustating thing for me was that i payed her phone bills for so many months thinking that it will help up to stay connected. She told me that she like to share her secrets with me as if I am some bank locker. One day she asked me for Rs2000 for her class friend who needs money to pay the college fees. And guess what, i broke her gmail account and learned from the saved chats there that she wanted that money to go and meet this prince charming in some hotel. I couldn't believe that she can do this with me for a guys she barely know.

After getting badly financially looted i removed her from my life. Now I feel like Shrek living in a swamp alone. Life without love really sucks. You cannot say good night before you sleep, when you wake up the only thing you see first is the ceiling fan rotating above your head. The first thing you do is to check how much the movie is downloaded after the night long download seasion. There is no such thing called 'kiss' in the world. Moreover day by day you become insane.

Now i have started becoming more mean, and i feel like becoming a criminal. I don't feel anything when i hear news of mass death due to war, genocide etc in news channels. On the other hand i feel good that atleast some of hater dies. I feel bad at very small things. 

How much longer can one survive if he don't have love?

sarkarg sarkarg
22-25
4 Responses Mar 7, 2009

i am adopted. if u do dont keep it from the child. <br />
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i know how that is.<br />
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u sound as though u would be a good parent.<br />
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better than mine atleast.<br />
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good luck

Hi Truthsayer<br />
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I am thinking of adopting a kid after few years. With so much of negativity inside me i don't think i can go for a love or marriage relationship ever.I am feeling really bad since last few years and it has developed into some kind of social anxiety type. But I have hope. with all the failures and no-one-love-me type situation around me it will take some time for me to overcome this situation but I'll overcome it someday. <br />
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Thanks

Sarkarg,<br />
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I am 44 years old, have two daughters, (one that I raised alone), and have never been married. I used to blame the world for my troubles, and took my anger out on everyone around me. I was a miserable soul to conyend with. I had no friends, my family "abandoned" me, or so it seemed, and I drowned in my own misery of thoughts of "nobody loves me". I hated myself and my life. My heart was broken by so many men, I swore off of relationships. Then I realized something. When I began taking my anger out on my children, that's when I realized I needed to change something. Although it may seem that love has let me down, there was always music in my life. I love music, I love to dance. When there was no one else to dance with, I danced with myself. I learned to use music, my first true love, as a therapy for anger management. You see, music expresses every emotion known to mankind. If I was feeling angry and frustrated, I'd listen to music that expressed that emotion and release that anger through dance, something I loved to do! It took a while, but I soon learned to control my anger and frustrations and not take my problems out on others. <br />
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Love is an amazing thing. You don't need a sidekick partner to experience love. If the love is inside you to give, then the more of it you give, the more you will feel it. The spring of love inside you is a well that will never run dry. But you must tap into it, and regardless of how "alone" you feel in your everyday life, don't dwell on that. Just give what you can to others anyways. It doesn't have to cost you anything. A smile, a joke, a little compassion for another who needs it...etc. It is a hard lesson to learn, believe me, I've been there, but I also came through it unscathed. I still am not married, nor do I have a boyfriend or lover, but I am loved by all as I let my personality shine through the things I love the most. You can too.

I ask myself at 18 years old why do date even?<br />
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I have had to exboyfriends in 2 years and the 2nd one accused me of stealing his Ipod! <br />
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I hate myself for what I isn't even bout now but a past i am still learning bout