I Don't Understand Who I Am

I don't have a real personality because of depression and anti-depressants.  I grew up in a house where I was always scared and I never really figured out me because of that.  I didn't get the chance to be a kid and create myself.  I feel like I could be someone totally different and someone who I could actually love, but I barely even think that I am a legitimate person.  I'm self-absorbed, lazy, and mean.  I wish I could become someone else, someone who I really think that I should be if my circumstances were different as a kid and as a young adult.

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1 Response Apr 30, 2009

Yeah, I can relate. I often also feel that if things would have gone differently in my life, I would be a better person...<br />
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But there's no use in blaming your past, you can't change that. You can change your future though. Keep looking forward. I hope you get up the courage to start being the person you want to be, no matter how you accomplish this.<br />
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Thanks for sharing.