Abuse started when I was a pre-teen... My story is long.
I feel bad about myself all the time! And, I don't understand because I am a good, caring person.
I got out of a bad, abusive marriage and after 3 years I thought I would be okay. I am not.. I was AWESOME before I met this man who wanted to make me feel special. He did, for a while.. Before we married he was so charming, I got flowers at work that were 2 feet tall. He didn't really believe in marriage, but because I had kids I wouldn't just be a "live in". We married.
Now everything is a battle. It is like a flash back to where I was. Now I am thinking I would have been better off either staying with my X or just with me and my kids.