I Hate Myself For Not Being Able To Be A Real Friend To My Friends...

I hate myself. I just can't find that ounce of strength and confidence in my "friends" (I quote this because I don't think I treat them like one beacuse of not telling them.) to tell them what has really been happenning in my life - our financial struggles. I want to tell them, but I am afraid. And now, as bad as the situation is, I have told them lies instead. I am becoming deeper and deeper in this abyss. Why can't I trust them enough to tell them the truth? And if ever they didn't accept me, why on earth should I care??!

agonesmile agonesmile
18-21, F
Feb 24, 2010