No More,please

It turns me into someone I don't like or recogonize,either a screaming,sobbing baby or a psychotic b*tch who wants to kill or harm everyone looking at me the wrong way..I should be  admitted to the psch unit,and locked up for 2 weeks to prevent harm to myself,as I get suicidal on top of this fine mess..I take Ativan for these episodes..I wish I didn't get PMS anymore :(        I feel like Satan himself...

It's funny looking at it this way,and talking about it,but it really isn't at the time..

UPDATE

The doctor put me on another anti depressant shortly after I wrote that story,in addition to my regular ones,and it has helped a lot! The symptoms are much milder,and I still get the tiredness, cramps, and other physical pains,but  in general, feel better,and don't have the urge to kill everyone. :)
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41-45, F
Jul 23, 2010