Absolutely Terrified, Please Spare Me The Horror

When I was a kid I used to be a great deal shyer than the average kid, luckily I did a good job getting past that and outgrowing it.  However, as I got older it changed into a performance anxiety.  I was absolutely terrified to give a speech or read aloud in class, terrible shaking and sweating and voice stammering, just mortifying.  Ironically, when not asked to speak you couldn't shut me up, I talked to everyone in every class nonstop.  When I went to college it only got worse, it grew to that I'm even terrified of speaking up and voicing my opinion in a class.  I went to a psychiatrist to help, but she described me as having Social Anxiety, which just doesn't fit right.  It's an oxymoron, but I'm terrified to speak up in a class, yet in the social realm I thrive on being the center of attention.  So any help from people who suffer from performance anxiety, but are fine socially and are outgoing, would be really nice.  I still struggle to understand how I can have such different sides...

BrandNewNobody BrandNewNobody
18-21, M
Feb 23, 2010