I Hate Relying On People To Talk Me Out Of Offing Myself
Reasons:
This has happened THREE TIMES now.
1. If I wanna ******* kill myself, I should just do it, or I should get a ******* therapist. The end.
2. A.This is unfair. My best friend/rock didn't sign up for this ****. It isn't what he enjoys about being my best friend.
B. I don't want him to be scared of my psychotic emotional rampages.
4. Every time I get THIS close and realize that it's time to make the decision of talking to someone or doing it, I am reminded of the fact that I HAVE A PROBLEM.
In short, I really think that people shouldnt be so needy. I do not need my life to be someone else's responsibility. This whole trying-to-decide-how-to-kill-myself-then-wimping-out-and-spilling-to-my-friend thing cannot be normal.
I wonder if other people feel this way, too.
This has happened THREE TIMES now.
1. If I wanna ******* kill myself, I should just do it, or I should get a ******* therapist. The end.
2. A.This is unfair. My best friend/rock didn't sign up for this ****. It isn't what he enjoys about being my best friend.
B. I don't want him to be scared of my psychotic emotional rampages.
4. Every time I get THIS close and realize that it's time to make the decision of talking to someone or doing it, I am reminded of the fact that I HAVE A PROBLEM.
In short, I really think that people shouldnt be so needy. I do not need my life to be someone else's responsibility. This whole trying-to-decide-how-to-kill-myself-then-wimping-out-and-spilling-to-my-friend thing cannot be normal.
I wonder if other people feel this way, too.
By:
Psychosquid
Age:
16-17
