I Hate Smoking, but do it anyhowI smoke. I am a secret smoker. Never smoke in public. It smells just bad. I can feel a negative effect of smoking on my body, but it is so difficult to stop when it is attached to emotions.
Every time I need time out, I smoke. If I feel sad, I smoke. If I worry, I smoke. It is not a physical addiction, when I am traveling or enjoying the live, I do not even think about the cigarettes.
I am fighting the habit for 4 years, and no results. It feels, that soon I will run out of methods to try. The hope is always there, but sometimes it is difficult to keep on, the inner fight is hard to win.