I Really Hate It. Yet I Smoke...

Uugh I hate smoking.. I think it's so disgusting, I can't stand the smell, the taste, or the smoke. When people are smoking around me, and I'm not I almost get kind of dizzy. When my boyfriend smokes while I'm sleeping, I'll wake up because of the smell. Uuughh.. Yet I'm a smoker, and I started when I was about 13 I think, then I've been smoking with a few "breaks" cause I was doing it behind my parents back so it wasn't always possible. I was never able to say no to pick it back up either, so now at 22 I still smoke and I have probably been really addicted to them since I was 19 and moved to live on my own. Blech! but now I think about quitting every single day. I can't stand it anymore.
However I just know that I don't have the willpower at the moment to lay off of them. I'm also trying to lose weight and be more active overall, I am trying to do so many other things to improve my life in a slow pace. I know I'll just end up falling back on it if I try. I've tried quitting many times. I guess I feel that I can't both "stop" eating and smoking at the same time. Silly...
It could also be that at the same time I feel it's so nasty, it's also comforting and "cozy" and the cigarettes can really make me relax when nothing else can. Pfff...