The Other Person
Sometimes I wish I was one of those people who can control their feelings really well. I have always been that "other" person. The one who cares too much, or too fast, or too easily. I tell myself everytime that I am going to be better the next time, keep my feelings in check, make sure that the other person is just as invested as I am, yet...stupid me...I do the same thing over and over. Every single time, I wind up getting hurt. I hate caring so much. I want to be more closed off, better at controlling how I feel, and better about waiting to invest my emotions. I dont want to stop feeling all together, but I would love to be a better judge of when its right, to keep my heart from getting broken so many times. Everytime it gets broken, it gets permanantly damaged a little bit more. Sometimes I wonder how many times its gonna take before it stays that way. I really envy those that have the ability to judge a situation with a little more clearheadedness and wait before investing thier emotions.