I Hate That My Boyfriend Has Slept With So Many GirlsI'm sure a lot of people both girls and guys have gone through this, but I haven't been able to find much on it online so I decided to share it on here and see hwat kind of responses I get. Anyways, my boyfriend and I are 8 years apart, which isn't a problem at all, but obviously he has had a lot more time than me to rack up on the sexual experiences. I've known him for 6 years, we lost touch for a while but about a year and a half ago we began talking again and we've been together a year, which because we've been through so much feels like a lot longer, but not necessarily in a bad way. He was in the military for several years and did not have a great experience and I think this might have contibuted to this, like he needed to find a way to fill himslef or something. He's had sex with 6 girls over the past few years which maybe that doesn't seem like a big deal but it really bothers me. All but one I don't care too much about, as they are far away and I have never had names or faces to put to them, so they're somewhat of ghosts from the distance past that I'd prefer to keep there.
However, one girl in particular of the 6 took it upon herself about a year and a half ago to try and put me through hell about me dating her ex and she was just a complete nasty *****. She's pretty overweight and not attractive at all, which I know doesn't matter what people look like but for some reason that just adds to my anger about her. And I know she didn't love him because she trated him like crap. I was friends with him way before she even came along and she had the nerve to act the way she did towards me when they weren't even together. I have this feeling of sadness I live with all the time because I know that he will never be just mine, that all those other girls have a piece of him and I wonder how much he thinks about the still especially when he's with me. I feel like they've robbed me of having a truely great relationship with him and someday a good marriage, because I do want to marry him in a few years after I am done with school and everything. I;m not sure how to deal with this pain and anger I feel about all of this, I know that I can't change the past or anything, and I know what they say, guys need sex, they can't help themselves, it means nothing, blah blah blah. He's really good to me and he never brings any of his past relationships up or anything and it's not like he cheated since this all happened before my time. But it still really hurts. I've tried talking to him about it, but he gets annoyed and he doesn't understand how I feel, I guess since he's the only one I've ever been with and I don't have that kind of a past like he does. It breaks my heart to think about it.
I just wanted to share my story and to see if anyone else relates to me. Feel free to leave comments and stuff.
pirate54 18-21, F 24 Responses 4 Aug 7, 2011