I Hate That We Love Each Other But Cant Be Together
I hate this situation im in. Its so typical that the first guy i've ever had serious feelings for - my first "real crush" some would say, but honestly, its feels like more than that - happens to be perfect in every single way (smart, charming, funny, considerate, honest and so on) exept in the only way that matters - he's not muslim
It all started when I started studying in college. This guy happens to go in my class and we became friends because we're so similar and we have so much fun together. People even say we're perfect for each other. It took me a while to realize I had some serious feelings for this guy since i basically have no experience with love what so ever, but since it couldnt work, I just tried to make the feelings go away and ignore them (impossible btw but what can you do)
This semester though we became really close friends, mostly i think because his friendship with this other girl in our class got bad when she told him SHE had feelings for him, he didnt feel the same way about her. Then he drops a major bomb just as we went on christmas break by writing to me on facebook that he has feelings for ME, but he knows it cant work out because we come from completely different worlds and ultimately we both want to find someone special within our own religions. He wrote this giant confession (it was 2 pages long!) not knowing about MY feelings for HIM, and he said he doesnt want me to worry about him feeling sad over this situation and that i should just act like before. Its all just a real big mess, especially since we'll be in the same class for four more years
So my plan is to NOT tell him how i feel about him ever (I'd honestly much rather set myself on fire,not really big on talking about my feelings) because that will only make things worse and i desperately wanna keep the drama to a minimum here. I'll just have to pretend everything's fine. It's gonna be hard, really hard, and im terrified of how things will unfold this coming semester. Im not afraid we will cross a line or something, im just scared about us getting real hurt in the end.
My life seems so messed up. I've become such a cynic when it comes to love. Ive lost faith in that there someday will come a perfect guy whom i can be with. My question is if there's any chance one can just fall out of love with someone who's so perfect for you when you see this person every single day, cause that's the ONLY thing I can hope for in this messed up situation.
It all started when I started studying in college. This guy happens to go in my class and we became friends because we're so similar and we have so much fun together. People even say we're perfect for each other. It took me a while to realize I had some serious feelings for this guy since i basically have no experience with love what so ever, but since it couldnt work, I just tried to make the feelings go away and ignore them (impossible btw but what can you do)
This semester though we became really close friends, mostly i think because his friendship with this other girl in our class got bad when she told him SHE had feelings for him, he didnt feel the same way about her. Then he drops a major bomb just as we went on christmas break by writing to me on facebook that he has feelings for ME, but he knows it cant work out because we come from completely different worlds and ultimately we both want to find someone special within our own religions. He wrote this giant confession (it was 2 pages long!) not knowing about MY feelings for HIM, and he said he doesnt want me to worry about him feeling sad over this situation and that i should just act like before. Its all just a real big mess, especially since we'll be in the same class for four more years
So my plan is to NOT tell him how i feel about him ever (I'd honestly much rather set myself on fire,not really big on talking about my feelings) because that will only make things worse and i desperately wanna keep the drama to a minimum here. I'll just have to pretend everything's fine. It's gonna be hard, really hard, and im terrified of how things will unfold this coming semester. Im not afraid we will cross a line or something, im just scared about us getting real hurt in the end.
My life seems so messed up. I've become such a cynic when it comes to love. Ive lost faith in that there someday will come a perfect guy whom i can be with. My question is if there's any chance one can just fall out of love with someone who's so perfect for you when you see this person every single day, cause that's the ONLY thing I can hope for in this messed up situation.
By:
lonelygirl505
Age:
18-21
,
Female
