I Hate That You're Not the Person I Thought You Were
...I know that it is my own damned fault. This is one of my biggest problems and a good head doctor might have done me a lot of good, a lot of years ago.
I meet a woman, usually one I am attracted to by looks, and away I go! No patience. No waiting to see WHO this woman REALLY is because, with looks like that, she must BE honest real and dependable. Right?... Couldn't be more wrong!
She was beautiful, fun to be around, liked spending time with me as much as I did her...let her into my life, friends, family and eventually home. I mean, I am 50 something now...not 30 something and finding someone attractive at this age is hard for me.
And always seems to go the same way...all is GREAT for 4-6 months or so....then there's some kind of metamorphosis that takes place...almost over night. I end up standing shaking my head in surprise and disgust...later stung by the fact that this woman is not at all the person I thought she was.
Lesson and note to self: Even if she looks like the princess herself and seems to have the mind of an intellect and she seems to want me.....BACK OFF and see what happens after 18 months...see if it's still there...from different homes and beds. Well, let's say 3 nights on 4 off for the bed thing......
I meet a woman, usually one I am attracted to by looks, and away I go! No patience. No waiting to see WHO this woman REALLY is because, with looks like that, she must BE honest real and dependable. Right?... Couldn't be more wrong!
She was beautiful, fun to be around, liked spending time with me as much as I did her...let her into my life, friends, family and eventually home. I mean, I am 50 something now...not 30 something and finding someone attractive at this age is hard for me.
And always seems to go the same way...all is GREAT for 4-6 months or so....then there's some kind of metamorphosis that takes place...almost over night. I end up standing shaking my head in surprise and disgust...later stung by the fact that this woman is not at all the person I thought she was.
Lesson and note to self: Even if she looks like the princess herself and seems to have the mind of an intellect and she seems to want me.....BACK OFF and see what happens after 18 months...see if it's still there...from different homes and beds. Well, let's say 3 nights on 4 off for the bed thing......