The Numbers Game

I've battled anorexia and bulimia and I like to think that I've overcome them. It took me months of therapy and support for me to make it this far and I'm proud to say I haven't stepped on a scale for 5 weeks. That's a big change considering I used to weigh myself up to 5 times a day. But I'm at home and there's a scale that my brother and mother use. I've avoided it the past few days, but I couldn't resist. I stepped on it just to check and that was a mistake. I know I'm healthier now, but stepping on that scale made me see just how much weight I had gained since "recovering". I almost cried when I saw the number. I try to tell myself that that's all it is, a number. But the old part of me keeps coming back... I really hope I don't relapse...
grobiegirl12 grobiegirl12
18-21, F
Jan 15, 2013