So. I had this dream where I had met THE perfect guy.

It was weird though. I knew that he was perfect, but I didn't let him get too close and he didn't allow me to get close to him neither.

It wasn't so much as his looks that I'd cared for, but who he was. He was everything that I needed.

Somehow, I knew that if I'd let him in, I wouldn't be disappointed and I'd love that man forever. And I also knew that if he'd let me in, then he'd love me forever. Like we're supposed to.

And even though that we still had a lot of work to do, we still stayed together. It wasn't perfect, but it was enough.

It's so weird. I felt like I loved him, but he was just a figment of my imagination. It's crazy. I do wish it were real, or at least just a sign that I will find that type of chemistry again someday, and with someone real, but we will see.

I think that I will always have the issue of letting people in... mainly guys, so it is something to work on. It is and it is going to be extremely difficult, but I'll try.
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Aug 18, 2014