Beyond What I Can Handle

Every summer I leave this horrid place to see my dad, then I go to Iowa to see my other family. Then I get to come back here, back to Wyoming. I have one friend here, 6 miles away. We live 20 miles from town and I have yet to be 16, so I am stranded...

Everyone has always told me to "cowboy up" which is retarded. I'm glad they like it here, but this isn't where my life is...

Sometimes, I lay in bed, wide awake all day, just bawling to myself. There's no one who really consoles me when I'm sad about "THAT AGAIN!" I have a blog to help me escape my own life (crazyforthestorm.blogspot.com) but even now it just isn't helping relieve the pain. I'm 15 for Christ's sake! I'm in the part of life where I should be with friends and free to do and be what I want. I have in turn turned to smoking (cigarettes) to calm myself. (either that or just out of plain boredom)

Here is a schedule of my daily life during the school year...

-wake up
-go to school
-come home
-do chores
-get on computer
-go to bed

I need help... please... what can i do? How can I change my life? I can't live like this!
hardlythesame hardlythesame
18-21
1 Response Jul 28, 2010

Get a part-time job after school and full time in summers. Save your money at first so you can get your own car. Then..........freedom! That's what I did when I was your age and HATED my life. Everything changes when you get a car (when you live kind of the middle of nowhere). You can save money from your job/jobs and put gas in the car and just go wherever you want to! I hope this helps you. I am old now and yearn for those days when I could do that.