I Pretty Much Hate Myself.If I walked into a room I wouldn't talk to me. I wouldn't even think of talking to me. I'd just judge me. Like "oh, look at that *****, She thinks she's so hot. She never smiles and ew, look at her stomach. haha what a loser." I do that about evryone, so why wouldn't I do it aout me? I look in the mirror and i find it very hard to see something positive about myself. I hate my body. I know i'm not fat, but i'm not thin either. I have a stupid body shape. My stomach is gross. I am really self conscious with anything i wear. I constantly suck my stomach in which, by the end of the day, kinda hurts. Everything I do i find fault with. If i draw something I can sit there for ages picking on everything about it. If i write something I do the same. (I'm even doing it to this. It's written so badly. I should be able to do a much better job.) When people compliment me i eiter reject it or don't listen cos I know it's not true. I avoid mirrors but i can't stay away. I hate looking in them but it's like i have to. I just find something wrong with my face everythime. Also i hate my personality. I've become really broing and quiet. I just want to scream and yell and be the 'naughty' person in class. The distraction. Not the quiet acheiver. I want to be exciting. Something is wrong with me & i hate it.
pjanoo 16-17 2 Responses 0 Mar 17, 2009