Lacking Motivation :(

Ok, so here goes. I'm 5'1'' and 130 lbs. That's a little too much for my height. I used to be 110 when I first started college in 2006, and maintained it pretty well (staying between 110-115 on avg) until March 9th, 2009 when my bf of 3 years dumped me, and I went into this terrible eating sprial. At first, I didn't eat at all for 2 weeks, then I just started binging. I gained about 10 lbs. Then I got clinically depressed and gained another 15 lbs, bringing me to 135. I started drinking heavily, and going out, and I found that no matter what weight I was, I still got hit on, so I stopped caring. Now, I'm on an antidepressant that has a lovely side effect of "loss of appetite" :) I don't eat as much (and lost 5 lbs! :D), but I wish I worked out, because I know I have the potential to have a bangin' bod!

I love every second of working out, and the endorphin rush after. It's the seconds before that I hate... I can't bring myself to start! :( Helppp!

wowohwow wowohwow
22-25, F
1 Response Feb 11, 2010

I know it's hard but just think about how much your body is suffering. Don't do it for the good body. At this point it's all about health. If you keep going the way your are, only more weight awaits you in the future.